The Pearl

[بثينة محمد]

The Name of Allah


My name is Bothinah .. Which means :

1- A white beautiful woman

2- An empty small land .

I was named after the well known : Jmeel & Bothinah :) , the matter I like to believe it has a poetry affect on my self . Although , it is not the only factor that made me a poet as I see my self, It happened to be that I am the granddaughter of a poet. :)


Therefor, here is what I may express freely & with no prepare at all ..


:) Bothinah , The pearl

[بثينة محمد]

My first love ever was my deary mother, the one who taught me what does sacrifice for love mean. She also learned me some valuable principles that I deeply appreciate.

I was born on Tuesday night at 2 a.m after my mother struggle to survive. :) It was the morning of Tuesday 22 August 1988 when I released my first shout :) and here I am :)

I admire honesty and frankness highly . I respect any one treats people whoever they were with these tow adjectives. I mostly hate to be looked at as an object of enjoyment and refuse this treatment fiercely.

last yet not least , I have a great passion for the red color which indicates to my fiery mood . :)

[بثينة محمد]

Time out :

I'm having a very bad moods these days that I would really enjoy torturing someone, anyone :)

[بثينة محمد]

Marriage is merely partnership yet requests kind of love that is calm, deep and trustworthy..

Love is the feeling of renewing and freedom which is absolutely can not be the only hand that builds a life..

Friendship is a chain will not be broken unless, at least, one of its parts gets weaker than the other ..

Family is the wall that no matter what or how disagree you are with, still , you will certainly fall on your knees when you lose it..


:)

This is what I think . What do you think ?!

[بثينة محمد]

The day I look to the sky and smile, I love it :)

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Loneliness is caused by deep pain that cuts the heart and drink its blood. Sometimes loneliness is merely a cry for help.

Do you feel lonely ? because my relation with it gets stronger any time I feel hurt..

I like to Isolate my self 'cause sometime people's feeling are gust punch lies.

:)

[بثينة محمد]

Dancing on the sky
Staring at the wind
Calling for my sweet love
:
My love..
My love..
My love..

B:) .. :)

[بثينة محمد]

I long to see the sunlight on your hair

& tell you time and time gain : How much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow..

HELLO

I've just got to let you know

because I wonder where you are
and I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely ?
or is someone loving you ?

Tell me how to win your heart
'cause I haven't got a clue

and let me start by saying : I love you !!

[بثينة محمد]

Whenever I look to the sky , I feel free

Whenever I gaze to the sea, I get emotional..

Whenever I hear your name, my heart beats faster and faster..
Whenever I see you, you are not there..!

b.pearl o.Soul :)

[بثينة محمد]

Being the third daughter gave me a lot of fun especially when non of my brothers are elder than me..:) me and my elder sisters share a sweet friendship that sometimes I feel that the one who is watching us will laugh as if he or she is watching a comedian show :)

Actually , I like to compare us with Charmed !!

For sure, I would be Fibbi the youngest sister, the writer :)

I just loove my sisters very much .. :)

[بثينة محمد]

I can hardly agree that the saying " Every deed is allowed in love & war " because it means that every deed is allowed in order to win !

whenever I do something with dignity and honor , I reflect how deep I desire what I do..

Winning is not always good. Failing could be a very good teacher if we only listened to its knowledge ..

Whenever I feel true love, I should express it any way possible, otherwise I am going to loose it by silence..

Bothinah.. Pearl of Soul

[بثينة محمد]

Occasionally, I regret being upset of someone I love and stop fighting for him or her..

I keep thinking that it might worked one day..

Still, waiting is not always the best solution. Somehow, it just does not do you any good..

B.. P.o.S

[بثينة محمد]

Sometimes, we hang on the hope that every thing will be just fine and escape of dealing with problems ..
We think that , this way , we are saving or selves the pain ..

Even when we know that it is over, we still pretend that every thing is okay so we do not feel lonely which is sad..

B.P.o.S

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Being in love has the sound of pure honesty and virginity .. It walks upon your soul within a flowery affect and serendipity ..

B.P.o.S

[بثينة محمد]

My pearl ..

My glowing pearl ..

Be aware .. to danger ..

take care .. of your precious ..

Life is merely a battle ..

between good and right ..

B.P.o.S

[بثينة محمد]

It could only be my destiny to be the comfort for sad and broken hearts , and not to find a shelter of my own for my long winter..

[بثينة محمد]

How would I know you ?!

How ?

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I was a flower swimming within the rain ..

I forgot now what I am ..

[بثينة محمد]

Can I be the steam of your life ? What about the rhythm ?

:)

It can be a stimulus for my life your being ..


:)


I only need an impetus ...

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I will write in front of mirrors..that I am a feeler ..

and they won't be able to hurt me..

[بثينة محمد]

One of my dreams was love .. Now , it is one of my fears ..

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Having nice dreams is like a gift to me..It's all because my bloody nightmares that make me feel I'm a vampire..:p

so, nice dreams for all of you.. :)

[بثينة محمد]

I am mad at my self because I'm loosing with no reason justifying this loose..
I know that I am stronger than this circumstances that I'm going through and I can achieve what ever I make my mind up to..
It is just my heart refuses to obey my reason ..

How bad is this ?

I know that I must control my self very fast ... :)

With God help I will very soon.. :)

[بثينة محمد]

Sleeping is a very tasty desert .. I really need to sleep..:) / :(

[بثينة محمد]

My soul is weary..

Why my heart is wounded ?

I might know though I may not be able to tell you..

[بثينة محمد]

Je suis fatique :(

[بثينة محمد]

But if my life is for rent

and I don't learn to buy ?

What then ? :)

[بثينة محمد]

Why do you think I'm waiting for you ?

I am not !!

[بثينة محمد]

I have a strong desire for departure ..

[بثينة محمد]

I'm so mad and exhausted today..

[بثينة محمد]

If you're gonna break my heart and leave

Make promises you don't intend to keep

If that's love then I want no part

But if you think that love should last for life

If you believe it's more than just one night

If that's love then you've got my heart

And if you'd rather hold on to your pride

Than wipe away the tears you made me cry

If that's love then I want no part

But if you're gonna be there when I need

Someone to just hold me tenderly

If that's love then you've got my heart

If the kinda love that you bring

Comes with no demands and no strings

If in your eyes I see for sure

That you're the one I'm waiting for

I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything

If I have to let go of my dreams

Become someone I never never thought I'd be

If that's love than I want, I want no part

But if you're gonna be that kind of man

Who's willing just to take me as I am

If that's love then you've got my heart

Tell me in your arms I'll be safe,

Where loneliness and fear have no place

The only thing you have to do

The only thing I ask of you

Is give your heart, your soul and your faith

And if you cannot give those things to me

Then I just have to tell you honestly

If that's love I want no part

But if you say you've finally found in me

The only place that you could ever be

If that's love you've got my heart

If that's love baby you've got my heart

If that's love

If that's love

If that's love baby you baby you

You've got my heart

I just looooooove these words :)

[بثينة محمد]

I love me instead of loving you ..

:)

[بثينة محمد]

I'm fed up with the stress !!

[بثينة محمد]

I can be mad at my self and at people. However, it is wrong to be irritated so easily..

Sometimes, when I'm stressed from some issue, I can be harsh with people who tend to be annoying and treat them uneasily. In my defense I say : I can not be the best person all the time. I think that people ought to help each other and not be ignorant and careless about others' burdens.

:)

[بثينة محمد]

I am trying to find out who did kill me ?

:)

It might just be .. that I walked into a suicide ..

:)

Would it be odd ?

I think not ..

for love is merely a lie when there is no such thing as trust ....

[بثينة محمد]

How sweet it is , when someone's heart beats only for you? ..

How strange it is , when this beat is an " illusion " ?

I wonder whether you will ever be mine or you will just vanish as one of my lost dreams ?

[بثينة محمد]

If you're gonna break my heart and leave

Make promises you don't intend to keep

If that's love then I want no part

But if you think that love should last for life

If you believe it's more than just one night

If that's love then you've got my heart

And if you'd rather hold on to your pride

Than wipe away the tears you made me cry

If that's love then I want no part

But if you're gonna be there when I need

Someone to just hold me tenderly

If that's love then you've got my heart

If the kinda love that you bring

Comes with no demands and no strings

If in your eyes I see for sure

That you're the one I'm waiting for

I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything

If I have to let go of my dreams

Become someone I never never thought I'd be

If that's love than I want, I want no part

But if you're gonna be that kind of man

Who's willing just to take me as I am

If that's love then you've got my heart

Tell me in your arms I'll be safe,

Where loneliness and fear have no place

The only thing you have to do

The only thing I ask of you

Is give your heart, your soul and your faith

And if you cannot give those things to me

Then I just have to tell you honestly

If that's love I want no part

But if you say you've finally found in me

The only place that you could ever be

If that's love you've got my heart

If that's love baby you've got my heart

If that's love

If that's love

If that's love baby you baby you

You've got my heart I am really an ignorant when it comes to you . I just can't say one small thing.

But What done has done... and if you would only know how much I want to hold you and fly to the farthest edges..

If you would only know how much I like to take you in my lap as one of my own babies..

yet, it's just what it is .. If you could not convince me with your passion .. then, it' just what it is..
isn't this frustrates you ? I would not really know .. I know that it would for me ..

[بثينة محمد]

If love requires tears more than smiles, then, I should claim that I'm no lover :)

[بثينة محمد]

I like to feel my inner peace through others' joy ..


It's not a true happiness when you are the only one that have it ! :)

[بثينة محمد]

To have a friend, a true friend, is to have a home !
Oh, home, sweet home.
it's like a blanket in cold winters ..
like day light between heavy trees..
like every thing beats inside your heart..
a friend can be the family that you never had..
the love that you never get..
the success you have never achieved..
it's like a flower scent in spring.. the only difference is that you can enjoy it all seasons..
:) to have a friend, a true friend, is a blessing .. that you should be thankful for..

[بثينة محمد]

If I were able to catch a cloud, would that mean I can smell roses ?!
Yet, why would I try to catch a cloud
while I am the sky..
Can sky smell roses ?!

[بثينة محمد]

There's no shelter for a lost and tortured soul..Neither ground carry it nor wind heal its wounds. How can I lead it back?! Even knowing the point of loss doesn't helping as I thought it'd. misled to the edges of nonsense!!! Every things sounds grey to my soul, things and people. Even affection shows as... an old-fashion show... simply grey‎

[بثينة محمد]

Being in love is always confusing.
No matter who you feel love with. The sacrifice, the worry, the sudden freedom that comes and goes with

the love waves, Every sensation is a mystery itself ! I just hate all this miss for love can never be arranged,

can never be organized nor trusted. It's simply a complex of motivation and stereotyped characteristics

fight with its own legends and morals. I can say a lot about being in love, yet silence is the best action to denote it

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A case of being Miraculous is when you try to be good or to do right deeds and then you fail. Somehow, people just look to what shines above your head and ignore the most important challenge that you may not be able to succeed at. It's irony indeed, when you are punishing yourself for your sins, there's always some appreciation that increases your feeling of guilt and raises your misery..Understanding humans mind is one of the hardest missions ever

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[بثينة محمد]

Forgive me my love for I can never need you more than a dear friend.. Friends are home, relief, peace and secure..love is passion, fragrance, wind and sea..Friendship are always logical, reasonable, understood, well-arranged while love is quite the opposite..Love can never be more than a need for living yet Friendship ...is the life itself. Thus, my love, If u r not my friend, then u r only a fire

[بثينة محمد]

I know how do I love you , how deep, how bad
yet , my heart can not be prisioned by you
thus , I may hold the guilt of making you sad
for I have to fly away from you
It is only you, the one who had
the purest love, the one which is true
you can wander and be at me mad
sure, you shall ask why I flew
My heart, my sweetest man
you could leave me. so, forgive me if you can

Pearl of soul..

[بثينة محمد]

I am the sky, the free soul that nourishes the wind.
I'm the daughter of the sun and the friend of the moon and beauty.
I am Bothinah !